Hari ini sepatutnye adalah hari yang paling bahagia buat diri ku.

Namun tuhan betul-betul mencabar kesabaran aku.

Sepatutnye pagi ini aku pergi rumah wan untuk menyambut hari raya haji bersama keluarganya.Namun tak kesampaian,kerna ayah aku.

Terus terang ingin ku nyatakan segalanye,aku tak tahan menanggung penderitaan ini.

Kau tak layak dipanggil ayah.Aku benci dgn apa yang kau buat dgn keluarga aku.Aku benar-benar benci diri kau. Setiap hari aku menangis kerana kesal dilahirkan didunia ini dan harus memanggil kau ayah.Seorang ayah takkan pernah panggil anaknye bodoh.Seorang ayah takkan pernah maki hamun anaknye.Aku benci kau,kau mengagap aku dan adik-adik tak berperasaan.

Aku kesal punya ayah seperti kau.Aku cemburu melihat org lain bersama ayah mereka.

Aku tak pinta harta atau kekayaan aku cuma pinta kasih sayang,sefahaman antara keluarga.

You u should understand me by now.Tapi kau tak pernah faham aku.All of us have to listen to ur words even its not make sense.I damly hate u.Aku lebih rela mati dari terus hidup dgn ayah yang tak pernah faham diri aku.U treat me like am i 6 years old gal.My future not plan by me,but its plan by U.Selama ini aku pendam,Namun kali ini aku taknk pendam lagi.

I need time to tell u everything tat i hate u.I don"t care if i get beaten up by u till i die.I knoe i have to stop u before its too late.U the one who run everything.I hate u dad.

Semoga Allah tunjuk kan dan bukak kan mata kau satu hari nanti ape yang kau buat selama ini.

*/Mama fi*-Cute ira-Papa Wan*

-We belong together-

*-Ira mentel Hug bEar frOm Papa WaN*-

*-So cHubBy u blUEk*-

*-EEEEE mEnTeL nYe *

O k its been a very long time i never update,since i busy working.

first thing first i wana say sori to my adik ikakechiq.Sori for not met ya today as at that time

i'm not in the mood to hang around wif anyone...till at 5 my syg Papa call me to meet me n Ira at Lot 1.We had our dinner at Mac donald.Ira get scoleded by me sal tak salam my syg hehe notty u dik..last-last she mesra wif my syg.Syg buy for her pink color bear.AT first Ira holding blue color bear i start to be excited as blue was my color.Then syg saw yellow bear,he started to point it at Ira.But last Ira choose pink bear.Padan muke kite hehe.We take neo print..actually we pose in many ways tapi sal neoprint to rosak,dah pic spoilt.Haiz......

Syg hav great fun wif Ira so do i.

get back home ira was so excited by say "Best ehk kuar ngan abg wan"

i just smile.hehe

His the best guy i ever had.He will be my only one till end.

Nur Hafillah Heart Muhamad Safuan

Love u lots papa.

May our love stand forever

Ibu syg papa.

Khilaf diri ku

Khilaf diri ku mencintaimu

Khilaf diri ku merinduimu

Setiap hari teringatkan mu

membuat aku menangis...

Silap diri ku percayai mu

kata manis mu umpama madu

terperangkap aku dengan janji mu

sehingga aku derita...

tegarnya engkau pergi dgn nya

sakitnya hati bagai dipanah

setiap hari aku derita

terkenang saat berdua....

Pergi lah engkau jauh dari ku

Pergi lah engkau berbahagia

biar kan aku hidup merana

sepi tanpa diri mu...

SONG N LYRIC BY:Fillah

Ola its been a long time i never update my blog...

I make my fourth song... kinda jiwang today...

i gona record n i put in my blog aites

hehe do give comment after the put up of voice

gona put his voice too hehe

yay day by day i recover from my sickness...

Syg hav recover from his sickness thx god...

I busy working same goes to my syg...

Well get my pay today....

Yeah gona buy psp...

Haiz school reopen...kinda bored ar.

kindly speaking i hate school...

I hate it...

but i hav to make myself love it.......

K lah readers till here

Wokey start for today.Feeling ok lah then yesterday,but a bit giddy.

Pa called me and asked to teman him jemur.Sal syg dah demam for almost

4days.I went to his home,his mum there.Aru nak g jemur dah hujan.wat a bad luck sey.Alik lagi watch tv at his house. Like sedih gitu tgk syg sakit.

Ya allah pls sembuh kan pa secepat mungkin.Fi taknk die menderita.Biar fi yg derita jgn Wan.I really hope die sembuh cepat.

Syg , Fi always syg u.

Tomorrow i'm working so tired tapi takpe la...

k lah gona take rest take care.

*MisS mY SyG lOtS*
*Mixed of me middle pic i sick...*Pucat ehk muke*

Well i can update log as i not feeling well..

My syg too was not feeling well..

syg i be pray for u semoga pa sembuh cepat k syg

Ibu love pa lots.

There no one can replace u from my heart

I love u lots muacks...

For mY BlOod sis:

AS for adik sori for evrything i not feeling well...

after i shouted at u my head spinning...

hope u forgive me...

Juz wanan let u noe i love u lots dik

Mama thx for the advise.

I"m sorry.

Thanks for let me be wif wan forever.

Ok i get my result.

I was dam disappointed wif myself till i cry from i be back school till at night.

I pass all the subject,but my grade was sucks.I get 11 point.Such a wasted.

I tell syg bout it,sorry syg for make u sad.He told me he can"t eat after i told him my result.He scared i get beaten up by my dad.But i was lucky yesterday.I mean i didn"t expect my dad be so understanding yesterday.Maybe he see my hard working all this while.Syg asked me to repeat same as my dad asked me to do so.After think of it.Yah i tot of repeat.Its more beta then i go ITE.Syg don"t want me to go Ite as he say bdk-bdk ada yg mcm sial.Syg make me strong by say not to be ashame when i be back to sec ,As i be there not to entertain anyone but to study to make my future bright.Syg promise to sent me to school on the first day of school.Syg i was lucky to get you by my side.Thank you so much for everything.I will always love u.

Promise to never hurt u.

Ibu syg Papa sampai bile pun ibu akan tetap syg papa.

Papa penerang hati ibu.I need u till end.

Fila loVe WaN

*-DrAW Of mE-*

*-New Of Me-*

Wokey lets start of For saturday firts:

Going out wif syg n wif his mum n dad.We went to vivo city.

But only for awhile coz syg Abah was tired.So we hit over to harbourfront as syg mum wanted to went to mega store.We hav lots of fun there.Me n syg was so kecoh hehe.

Syg mum n dad went to look out for water heater,while me n syg look for things that we need in ten years times hehe so swits sia.

Then we went to food court n ate.

Syg n me ate chiken rice n yong tau foo,while his mum ate mee hongkong n his dad ate tahu bakar wif satay.We enjoy our meal.

After that we went home as his parents was tired.

We took taxi n went home. Syg sent me to bus 300 n i went home...

Miss syg so much

Gona meet him today maybe at nite.

Papa,Ibu LOVe u loTs

MuaCks

Bila lelaki benar2 jatuh cinta dan setia pada kekasihnyadengan ikhlas, perubahan sikapnya amat mengejutkan.Hati lelaki yg dianggap keras selama ini, tiba2 secarasemulajadi menjadi selembut kapas apabila sudah jatuh cintadgn relanya.Bahkan lelaki yg mabuk cinta sanggup berkorbandan buat apa sahaja utk kekasihnya.
Sekeras manapun hati lelaki ia akan mengalirkan air mataapabila hatinya dilukai.Utkmelihat lelaki menangis amatlah payah.Diantara tanda2 lelaki yg jatuh cinta dgn hebat ialah:
1. Dia bersungguh2 melakukan sesuatu utk kekasihnya dgnrela bukan krn terpaksa.

2. Dia sentiasa ingin menghiburkan kekasihnya dan berubahmenjadi orang yg kuat bercakap.

3. Dia byk menasihati kekasihnya kerana dia amat menyayangikekasihnya.

4. Dia berusaha mengongkong kebebasan kekasihnya krn perasaancemburunya yang meluap-luap.

5. Dia sentiasa takut kehilangan kekasihnya.

6. Dia sentiasa mengawasi pergerakan kekasihnya krn diasentiasa berasa curiga.

7. Dia tidak suka ada lelaki lain rapat dgn kekasihnya.

8. Dia mudah merasa cemburu dan sensitif apabila kekasihnyatidak menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kepadanya.

9. Adakalanya dia seperti seorang anak kecil yang memintaperhatian krn dia mahu kekasihnya melayannyalebih dari org lain.

10. Dia menjadi org yg paling rajin dan sanggup membantukekasihnya melakukan apa saja.

11. Dia pandai merajuk hati krn ingin dipujuk oleh kekasihnya.

12. Dia akan mengalabah apabila kekasihnya berjauhandaripanya terlalu lama.

13. Dia sentiasa mempastikan keselamatan kekasihnya.

14. Dia mementingkan kekasihnya daripada dirinya sendiri.

15. Dia kerap bertanya adakah kekasihnya mencintainya krndia merasa kasihnya lebih kuat drpd kekasihnya.

16. Dia tidak akan melayan perempuan lain yg tidak adaurusan penting dengannya.

17. Dia cuba meluangkan lebih byk masa dgn kekasihnyawalaupun terpaksa menunggu
kekasihnya dgn sabar.

18. Dia membanggakan kekasihnya di depan org lain.

19. Kalau ditinggalkan oleh kekasihnya, ia akan berasa serikdan tidak percaya dgn cinta perempuan lain namun dia sentiasamengharap kekasihnya kembali kepadanya.

20. Apabila timbul org ketiga, dia akan hilang akal dansanggup berbuat apa saja untuk merebut kembali kekasihnya.

21. Dia menganggap kekasihnya sebagai org yg palingdipercayainya dan sanggup menyerahkan harta walaupun nyawanya sendiri.

22. Dia tidak akan berlaku curang kepada kekasihnya namunjikalau dia dia berbuat demikian itu bererti hatinya belum100 peratus mencintai kekasihnya.

23. Bukan semua lelaki sanggup menitiskan airmata hanya untuk seorang perempuan

Well All This was true.

I believe in it cause My syg have done it.

Thats why i love hIm lots.

Thx To InDAh fOr thIs msg.

PA Ibu LovE u loTS

MUACKS

-Fila N wAn FoReVEr-

Many asked me why,why should i always give him a chance n not others.

Its easy for me to answer but its hard for ppl to understand..let me tell u why i choose Wan as my guy.I knew him seen he we was sec 1.Even i knew he hurt me lots of times.But there something special bout him that other will not understand.

Dia banyak berkorban demi Fila,Ppl will not see wat he does to me..But only me can see that n the witness are only god,Allah that see his patient towards me.

His love for me was strong..i knew our love was strong..Even many time we be apart,we will be together back.Kita lalui byk dugaan dan cabaran,pahit manis semuanya bersama.

Thanks to ALLAH for answering my pray.Ppl will tot i was stupid to except him back.Yah wan kuat cemburu,tapi kini Fila faham kenapa Die kuat cemburu kerana Fila dah laluinye kini.Cemburu bukan nye ape ia tanda sayang.Wan takut Ila gi ngan org lain.That the same feeling i have for him now.Thx to Allah for make me understand wat he felt.Apa yang Wan rasa Fila dah lalui nye kini.Cuma satu yang Ila takut.Ila takut perpisahan terjadi kerana org cemburu akan diri kita.Tapi Fila yakin,Cinta kita takkan dapat dipisah oleh sesiapa pun kecuali Dia.

Ya everything i'm in the wrong,Mama i just don"t get it.I juz need ur help to take for my madrasah result n not a nag!I hate ppl nag at me!I just feel like crying.Since i was small i understand i been pampered lots..and i the one who get beaten up lots!But not a single word i say i hate u FOREVER!I don"t knoe why i get a family like this but i just redha wif wat god given me...As i grew old the love of parents to their daughter i not seen a single...I juz need u both to understand me..but seem dad can"t.Thanks to syg cause who noe me better than my parents do.
Thanks syg...i was lucky to get a guy like u.That why i don"t bother even u hurt me.
I hope our relantionship stay forever...Its been lots of time u n me been apart n wat ever had happened we be together again..Mungkin ni jodoh kita...
To those who jeles wif us why should u be??can"t u see us be happy??
I don"t bother wat ppl will say bout us...Wat i knew now i only love him...
Oh god pls let my family be happy too...i don"t care if i been hurt i just want to see them happy.Pls Allah..

*LoVe Pizza So MuCh!! Mama SAy hIs ChUBby bUt i always love him!*


*My syg n me!!*


*sYG BOUGHT PizZA FoR MUmMy N Ika!! TheY LOvE it!! so greedy sia!!*



*SyG BoUgHT FoR mE WhItE cHoCoLate!! LoVe It sO mUcH! tHX SYG!!*



*This all hamster pic! we take it at vivo city pet safari shop!*syg say it look like me!! notty u!! i not hamster!*







*wAT DO U tink is dis??a Lion or bear??*


*None of above!Its a dog!! cute rite??*


Ok here came for today update!!
ayg n me not working...
so we decided to when vivo city together!
i have great time wif my syg!!
We search for my school bag!!
yeah found one but not buying it now!!
Then we proceed to toyrus!! i show my syg the elmo i wana buy !!
We went to lots of shop!! then we proceed to my fav shop!!
the chocolate shop!! syg bought for me white chocolate!!!
thx syg!! Then we proceed to game stall!! look out for psp!!
yah we decided to bought my psp at tat shop as syg say its cheap n the game are cool!! then we went to pets shop!!
i was impress when i see this dog!!at first i tot its a bear or a lion!! yah that the pic above!! but it a dog!! I was dam ashame!! when this eurasian guy laugh at me
when i say its a bear!!! Syg was juz smile at me and say the dog is cute!! i agree wif u syg!! then we decided to find stuff to eat!at last me ate at mac!yah we so dump!!we don"t knoe there malay food there! aduh!!
last we proceed to new york pizza! syg bought for mama n his mummy pizza
mama was thankful to syg coz she hungry hehe..
Then we went take pix n off home!!
i enjoy my day today!! thx syg for spent ur day wif me!!
tomorrow we working...haish!!
its ok... i'm ok wif it!! gona wake up syg this morning!
till here!!
take care!!
I will reply u guys tag aites!

Ok start for today!!
sorry its been a long day i never up date my blog.
Since i busy working n meet my Honey!
Well ya for those who wana know how i done my blog its easy work to be done!
just use photobucket n paste the url!
but u must edit ur pic first lor!!
well i n my honey has open up friendster!!
hehe well i can"t lie! i love him so badly!!
he my everything now!!
well he get his psp!!
but i"m not yet!!
Haish!! never mind!!i fall in love wif pink color psp!!!
But syg want us to wear white color!!
hehe guess wat our next salary we gona spent on jacket!!
expensive la... but we like it!!
btw i love be cashier lor!!
its fun not boring!
wana knoe why?? cause i get to touch alot of money!!!
hehe but i not money minded okies!!
make it clear huh!! well indah!!! i wana ur url lor!!!
haish! so mira honey i gona link u up soon aites sweet!!
those who asked me to link u up no worry!! i will link u up aites!!
so anything juz tag me!!
sayonara!!

Wewit here i came for today post...
well i suppose i will be working today,
but last min call from kak zaleha tat i suppose to go work tmorrow~!
yeah gona get good rest for today!!
Life as per normal..i juz couldn't sleep right past few days..
think of how my life will be...
i dam sad that indah close her blog becoz of ppl jeles of her...
Indah sorry to hear tat...haiz ya you are pretty n i love ur blog lots!!!
but that freak juz make u mad! they are juz jeles of u indah...so don"t be too sad aites n i really hope u open up ur blog again!!hmmp!
may i know who is shaz-wawa that tag in my blog??
hmm juz curious to knoe who u are...
btw thx for the comments!

well looks doesn"t matter for me in life..
even i go for my guy not becoz of his looks..
he hav the heart that no other guy hav...
i love his smile,his joke,his care n his love for me...

but don"t knoe why guy and gal out there still look for looks!
well looks can"t stay long even when u get older does that look maintain?
i don"t think so...
ya u can look at looks but u must also looks at heart n the character of that person..
its don"t seem to be good if that guy or gal hav a looks but inside them are rotten!
juz an advice to those out there..
juz don"t want u guys to regret later!!

but i lucky to knoe some pretty ladies out there that care to be my fren!!
thx to indah,annevely,kak yaniee n lots of my blog frens!!
btw most of gal in the world hav their own beauty in their self.so guy out there!
gal are special okies!! :P

k i think i hav type lots!!
till here then!!
for my frens out there if u need any help tag me aites!!
take care!

Yeah!
wondering why i upload all this pic?
don"t u guys tink they are cute???
yah i love baby!!
i love hugging n kissing dem!!
even i love hear baby cry!!
the first pic was me hehe
In future i wnat my baby to be chubby!!
hehe love baby so much!!
Juz wondering in ten years time i gona marry n hav my own baby...
yah guess wat i hav two name in my mind...
lau ada jodoh la haha
Gal will be Fila insyirah N boy will be Wan Indra syah
hehe juz name lor!!
For now i juz aim for my study!!
i wana aim for the best in my future...
go sec 5......ahead to poly or jc...
i wana study as far as i can...
i want my future to be as bright as the star!! i hope my dream came true!!..
Allah help me out in reach for it pls...
I juz wana make my family happy till the end...
I won"t let my dream go even if i fall...
i won"t let my future away....
for noe i collect money not for spending but for my study...
i gona spent it only for my psp n my study!
yah only for that!
k getting tired till here!!

Karin continues to pursue Arman even though he makes it clear to her that he is not interested. Ratna is determined to make Arman marry Karin. Adrian learns that his mother and Om Hasyim caused the breakup of his marriage, but his mother argues that they did it for his own good. Surya wants Ana to fight for Adrian, but she refuses. Eli realizes that Ana is still the good and caring daughter that she has always been, in spite of having suffered at her hands. Karin plans to take revenge on Arman for turning her down. Ratna, however, gives Karin the impression that Arman is interested in her.

Sinta and Surya work out a plan to expose the true nature of Asri, but Ana gets the blame instead. Arman bids Ana goodbye. Livia decides to leave for Germany to pursue her masters degree. Ratna is shocked to hear that Arman wants to marry Livia, instead of Karin, but Arman refuses to be manipulated by her. Adrian meets with an accident after telling Surya to get lost when Surya tries to make him see the truth about Asri.

Eli tells Ana about her plan to move the family to Surabaya when they receive news that Adrian had met with an accident. Ratna finds out about how Hasyim has been cheating her of hundreds of millions. Ratna sends them packing. Adrian regains hi s memory. Will he realize the truth? Will Adrian and Ana reconcile and begin a new chapter in their lives?


**************My fAv SToRy!!*******************

oK TAT pic edited by me....
yah life almost change...
I'm not Fila who like to kept my anger...
i'm someone that easily get angry.
Sorry for those yang dah kene marah ngan fi...
yah fi baik2 org pijak kepala fi!
why don"t u guys appriciate wat i done?
wah kasi muka lebih2 lak.
I just wana say tat i hate to hav enemy.
Yah some say i look like minah but its ok
i know who am i..i juz be myself...
i not minah...make it clear...
ok wat make me look like minah?
ok my dress up?? hmmm i don"t think so...
My face?hmm maybe...ok if u say becoz of tat make up made me look
like one asl tak tgk org2 yg g keje pat luar tu?
they more use of make up...
Nah make up is not the issue is how u wear it...
Ok thx for shasha advice u gave me...
i juz wana say tat i juz be myself dear...
hmmm did i wear it too tick??
hmm don"t think so...
i juz wear a bit of powder n eyeliner maybe my eyeliner make me different nd make me like i use make up too tick...
thx again shasha for the advice..btw i gona change not to use make up too often is juz tat becoz i'm working.:)

Ok stop dis crap....
I gona say thx to allah to help me wake up in the morning to wake my syg!!
yah its so swit to hear his voice in morning!!
yah that my mum on the pic above...
i don"t care i always heart her!!
thx mama for understand me...only u who see how i suffer in dis world...
Only u who see i crying every nite before i slept..
yah i juz wish to die as fast as possible..
but allah never ans my pray..
maybe he want to see how patient i can be...
ya i have to be strong to stay in this world...
thx allah for giving me two special person that understand me well...
My syg n my mum...forever i will love u both.


as for ikah my blood sis sori to scold u sometimes..
i juz felt down every moment i don"t know why..
sometimes thing juz make me shutup..
sorry for not sharing my problem wif u...
coz i think kept to myself was the better way to go...

Nad thx for be there when i need!!
i love u lots my bestfriend!!
I knew u since i was sec 1!!
i treasure u lots!!
thx for hear me out honey!
i heart u lots!!

As for today i not going anywhere maybe nite goin out to meet syg.

till here then...

Ok back to today......
currently juz like before i happy goin out wif my syg..
i don"t knoe why ppl kept pressuring me...
Btw i juz be myself....
why must there be green eyes between us?
hey come on!I juz be myself...
Even my own fren hav green eye on me.
Did i ever make wrong to u?
Okies wat ever now i wana make u all clear.
i don"t wana fight..pls let my life be peace!
I only want to be happy wif my syg forever...
hmmm do age really concern life?
i don"t think so....i juz be myself aites!

Monday post!!

*I WaNt ThIs ELmo tO BE MiNe!!*Wana buy but wait long2 la!*
*My syg!*

Love talk to him!

Me IN KEbAyA!

Okies i hav not get enough sleep.Lucky today i not working,i off till thursday.

ya hav fun wif my syg yesterday.We went pasar mlm n bought some food!gosh!

I ate a lots! ate burger,candy floss n chicken wings!

Ayg was like shocked for sudden i ate lots!ya i'm hungry lor mama tak masak.

Ayg so sori today my alarm giler babi lor! so sori i not wake u up at 515 instead i go msg u at 6am.So Sori,btw i did not knoe that u dream till tat why..no matter wat i won"t left u kies.

Ya i knew u hurt me lots...but i don"t knoe why my heart kept beating n telling me tat

no one is perfect n i should gave ya chance although there so many chances been given...

I don"t knoe why ppl hav green eyes on us.Oh pls can u pls let us be happy?

Eversince u gone i always pray to Allah,if you really for me you will came near me n if u not really for me u will went far from me.And here now my prayers been answer you came to me n love me just like u do.Thx Allah.Thx syg for be there when i need.

To my family ya i angry sometimes at u all but u are my family no matter wat u are my blood.

I will love you all till die even u guys hurt me many times.Mama thx for be there when i need ur shoulder.I just can"t help without u in my life.

Oh yah 4 days never work,guess i don"t get my 4 days of pay! haiyoooooo

so trublesome!!i want money to buy psp!!

i want it badly...

haiz guess i hav to wait to get my pay!

gosh!

till here!

getting tired of typing.

keep smilling all of ya!